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A simple scent can take you away
Very far away
To
moments when you have felt love
To
Moments when there was nothing but only two hearts beating at one
To
Moments when you have wished that this moment would never end
To
It really hurts
I can not keep her all mine
I tried to force her
And even threat her
But she made her choice
And
She went on by her own
Tears fell down
And my heart begged her to stay
But nothing made her stay
I felt like writing tonight ,
As if I can scream through my words and show the world what is within me, Why is everything as a lie ,All the relations around me are collapsed, I cannot find a little peace to lie my soul for a little while.
No one cares if what they do bothers me or not and as usual I have to cope with them, I’m really tired .I only want to live as everyone else . why should I carry all my families pain, why me !!!!
I’m sorry my darling
I will not wait any more
I want to take your permission
because
I will take your soul and make it mine,
I will be in control of your feelings,
I’ll be the wind that tickles your cheeks
and
dries your tears
I wish I could know what will happen after
3 mounths from now
Will she make a full recovery or not
I truthfully wish that my plan will work out
There is nothing more precious than this wish in my life
Sometimes I say to myself how if it does not work what will I do then
I have to do something
أشعر بألم في صدري
لا أستطيع أنا أمنع نفسي من البكاء
لا أدري لما أجد الحسرة في قلبي
لما لا أجد شخص يهتم
لا أشعر بالحب و الاهتمام من أحد
لا أحد يحبني
لماذا أنا
أنا أحب بصدق و أحب أن أحب بكل ما في قلبي من إحساس
أحب لدرجة أني أتهور بتصرفاتي
الحب لا يعرف حدود و هذه هي طريقتي في الحب
لكن لما لا أجد ذلك الحب
لما لا ألمس الحنان و الراحة
لا أشعر سوى بأهمية وجودي لمن حولي.
و لكن أين هي أهميتي أنا
من أنا في حياتهم
How can I express my happiness
How can I tell the world that my dream has took its path to become a reality
I wish I could tell the world to congratulate me for what I have done
I’m happy
Extremely happy
Finally I will make my love live like any other person in this cruel world
What is death ????
Why do we fear it ?????
Is it a simple thing we may confront???
What shall I do if it comes in a moment
And……..
I don’t have time to say
good bye
Good bye to all the people I know
Good bye to my parents
Good bye to my friend
How can I leave them and go ???
What will they do ??
Will they go on easily?
I ‘ve always dreamed to have a child
I thought of a name which deserves to be with her on and on
I’ve even thought of the way that I will raise her to be my all
I’ve dreamed to have her since years ago
But until now
There is no hope at all
Should I forget what once was a dream
What can I do in a situation like this?
What can I say to every one around me?
Was it wrong to do something that I wanted to be?
Is it a big mistake?
Since that
Every day there is a surprise for me
One day I see happiness and joy
Especially in the eyes of my thee
And sometimes as if I betray them with out no fear
I’ve always wished for me and my thee to be with me
In every step into the future of oddity
Is it fair to walk one step with out my thee?
